Be Oneself

To be myself is the most important issue to me recently.

Actually "to just be oneself" has been a trouble to me. I don't seem to be able to see clearly what kind of person I want to be and what kind of path I want to choose most. It may be because I have had too many chances to try many different possibilities. And I always can see the good development of myself in these different paths. Those developemt also bring me much benefit.

When I was young, the issue of "Be oneself" didn't even become an issue because I still have time and space to change. But as I grow older, the return and cost of choosing each path becomes more significant. The issue finally becomes very important.

What do I really want? I think much about this question when I consider career plan change recently. I can do a good research job. But do I like it really? Most important of all, do I want to commit myself into such path? A firm invited me to interview about a research job several days before. I can feel that I want to make the best performance in the interview. I also have done much study about this industry and job. Truely my understanding of this industry could stun the interviewers. But my passion and the sense of direction just don't seem to fit the tone. Something is just not right. I can feel that myself, not to metion the interviewers. A simple question: Why you choose this? becomes not so simple to me. I just can't help express the behavior or sense of a sales in the interview, not a researcher. But this sales seems to sell something that he doesn't believe in so much.

"To be oneself" is very important to me. I will continue this issue later.